Of realizations and struggles – #WeekendCoffeeShare
If we were having coffee together, I would complain about the hot October that we just bid bye to. I would admit, reluctantly though, that this time of the year was best in the UK and that I miss it, a bit. The alluring fall colors, the leaf carpeted sidewalks, the chillness in the air, the pretty nature – Oh yes, I miss it. I don’t miss the early sunset and sunrise, though. In my experience never before in October Phoenix was this heated up. October used to be the nicest month for Phoenix but this time it decided to act up like a rowdy toddler!
If we were having coffee together, I would say that it’s hard. This mommy thing. No matter how many times you become a parent, it’s hard. Parenting is about going with the flow, much like life! There is no handbook that will make you smarter in this topic. It is about trial and errors and choosing the closest to the best option every moment. And of course, we make mistakes. We have to, considering that there is no easy way here! Right now I’m tired, missing sleep and battling with the routines that I’m yet to master! Didn’t I know this before? Of course, I did! Then why the surprise? It’s one thing knowing it and assuming that it can be dealt with. But it’s a completely different matter going through it and actually dealing with it. But thankfully, there are easy days too, less energy sucking, more smiling days!
If we were having coffee, I would say that I don’t have anything else to say. Now that I’m sitting here with the intention of talking to you, my mind is going blank. But if I attempt to go to sleep, because that’s what I should be doing when the baby sleeps to refill my energy, then, no doubt,there would be a flood of topics and ideas in my mind that I couldn’t resist sharing with you! The effect of all these would drive the snooze away leaving a wide awakened me with crippling energy.
If I were having coffee with you, I would say that I’m not happy that I’m not writing much in Void Thoughts anymore. In fact, I am worried that my writing abilities are worn out. Oh, that thought itself is causing bruises all over my mind. I can’t think about it any further!
If we were having coffee together, I would ask how are you. Is life treating you kind? I would hope that it is! And sure it will be kind, even though it appears not at times. That’s what I tell myself. I would say come back here to share coffee with me again as I need to leave now. The tiny little wonder of ours is seeking my attention and before it turns into screams, thank you for being here.