I am upset today, for the last few days actually. I usually try to be positive even in the most adverse of situations. I have been like that since, forever. I find it easier to get through tough situations by staying positive. But then there are certain things in life that no one can change. Certain things in life are a given. Adjusting, understanding, changing perceptions, compartmentalizing, etc. are required in various measures to accommodate those things which must stay in our lives and cannot be altered.
But then there comes moments of despair where you just can’t take it anymore. I reason with myself to face it with a blind eye. I say to myself, “It’s ok. Just ignore it.” And it does nothing other than feeling sorry for myself. I do not want to be the bigger person always. But the situation never changes. It is given. I can’t influence, not with my words, not with my tears so well hidden. And I end up asking, “Why God? Why me?”
Note: There is a bigger story behind this ranting. Right now I am not strong enough to share the entire story here. Perhaps, one day I might be courageous enough to do that. But I had to write this now to get it out of my system!
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