Thursday, May 30, 2024
Life

A much needed rant on life!

Life is not going to be beautiful always. Now that’s the bitter truth. All we can do is to try to make it beautiful. But there will times when you fail miserably. At times, life gets ugly and painful, despite all our efforts.

It is a pity, right. Here we are giving our full energy to make our life happy and beautiful and then it seems, this life we care so much about has its own mind, trying to lead its way on its own, to somewhere we do not want to be! How desperate one can get when one’s beloved life does that!

However funny and weird it sounds, it is true. I am part of that life. If you ask me “are you where you want to be at this point of your life?”, the answer a big NO. I thought at this point in my life, I would be settled somewhere in the earth, not worrying about the next move to some other continent, with baby number 2 on my lap. I thought at this point in my life my worries would include finding a job, sleep deprivation, paying enough attention to Kanna, paying EMIs on time, thinking about my next blog post, pestering my husband to cook the dinner, and the likes. I never thought it will include where I will be, more like which continent I will be, six months from now. No, not at all. This wasn’t in my plan. If I start putting down my worries here I am sure I will drive you crazy. Because dears, some times I go crazy thinking about all these. My beloved life is taking me to places I never thought I would be in, to places I never wanted to be in other than for a vacation maybe.

To some of you this may seem nothing. But for me it is a big thing. I had paid my dues a long, long time ago. (That will be a different post, when I am umch stronger. Maybe in my autobiography. 🙂 Ambitious I am, huh? 🙂 ) I had struggled and battled in my life, lost my way and found it back. I have earned every right to be happy. I am still okay with few worries, few troubles, which I can handle. But this one I am dealing with right now is too much for me.I don’t want to be rich. I don’t want a spick and span house. Nor do I want a spotless life.

I don’t know whom to complain! I don’t know how to take control of my life and make it the way I want it to be, the way I need it to be! Remember Ted Mosby making it rain by screaming at the Rain God; right now I am rolling my eyes at the Life God and one more move away from the scream. So next time you hear a scream just be known that it’s me setting my Life and the God straight!

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Vinitha

An IT Professional, an author, an accidental blogger, a lover of words and a recent self-care addict. I love stringing words together, which I lovingly call a poem. You can read my affair with words at Void Thoughts(http://thevoidthoughts.com) and Reflections..(https://www.vinithadileep.com)

14 thoughts on “A much needed rant on life!

  1. Aww!! Hugs Vinitha! I know it is easier said that done. But VT tells me one thing that I have come to believe in a lot. If it isn’t under your control, just don’t let the thought come any where near you. Go with a flow and leave what you had imagined for yourself. Cos if it was under your control, you would have already done something about it. Right? 🙂

    1. Yeah, and that’s what scares me, Parul. It’s getting out of control exponentially. I think it is alright and all, then it gets worser. I try not to dwell on the bad effects if all these but some times it is getting out of my control, I mean controlling my thoughts on letting it go on which I don’t have control.

  2. I know, how bad it gets and I am in the same situation, better job, EMI and loan worries, crisis that life throws of us. So much brickbat and so much on the head. And, the struggle doesn’t leave….

  3. Change and unpredicability are difficult, Vinitha. How much ever we may say we are bored, the truth is we like the comfort that comes with boredom and routine. So I get what you mean 🙂 Having said that, don’t stress. Take things one thing at a time. Anything more will be overwhelming. Trust me. It has helped me!

  4. Vinitha, sending you a warm hug and lots of good wishes. It will all work out eventually. I understand the feeling, have been there. I recently moved and now my 6 year old is seeing a totally different life from the one he was used too. Big changes but we try to cope.
    Hugs to you, just embrace the change, this too shall pass 🙂

  5. Great post!!! Very thoughtful and as usual deep!
    I can understand what you are saying. I remember I always used to tell my students,” You can choose how your life should be! choose your own weather!” and things like that. But in fact I realized in my own life, I am not able to do that. Leave along big decisions, sometimes, even if we don’t want to go to a place and we have made sure that we have communicated that, but still it ends up that people say things or force u in a way that doesn’t feel like forcing..and lo and behold, you are in the place you said you don’t like!

    Sometimes, life is so complicated but at other time, i think are we making it complicated? Particularly, as Indian women, I don’t think we stand our grounds!

  6. Yes, life tosses up challenges all the time. And we dig our heels into the dirt, demanding they go away. But they won’t. We must conquer each challenge, only to find a new one has appeared. So it is to be human.

  7. Oh, it happens. Just take a deep breath and go with the flow. If there are lows, there will be highs for sure. Well, it’s easier said than done but we all are here to hear you out, just vent out and you will feel better. Hoping you find all the solutions right there in your pocket and Life is sweet and beautiful to you next time you pick up the pen! *Hugs*

    P.S. : Waiting for you autobiography! 😉

  8. Your emotions, captured well. Be calm and everything has to fall in place. Though after reading this post, even i feel like screaming to put things in place and to drive a point to the Almighty .. phew

  9. One thing at a time, dearie. It will all work out. In the meantime, take a deep breath and smile. 🙂

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