When did my head start inviting these pesky intruders inside, letting them take over and leave a mess? The pain they leave behind is so difficult to deal with!
Why did my head think that it was okay to let them in? Why didn’t my head stop them, right then and there on their tracks, at the beginning of the beginnings!
Last week again headache caught me. It was such an inconvenience. It always is; affecting my thinking abilities.
I can’t exist without thinking. I have this intense affair with my thoughts and words – a three-way if you will. But when I’m under the attack of a headache I simply have to ditch my partners in crime. And that’s just wrong and unacceptable. Just the thought of words and thoughts having all the fun without me is giving me a headache!
These three elements – thoughts, words, and headache were there in my life for as long as I can remember. As a school-going kid, headache always followed me around. I don’t know how I managed to get my studies done with all those pains! Thank you, crocin, for the temporary reliefs you gave my head!
Thoughts and words – they always existed together, though I failed to recognize them as a couple. I always found this instant happiness by accompanying my thoughts. It took me to places; places I never knew existed.
I was not fond of traveling. But this journey I secretly had with my thoughts always put me in an elated mode. I failed to see the words that accompanied along in the beginning. But as time passed I saw these trails left behind by the words and sometimes I paused to pick them up. There was a striking similarity between the thoughts I followed and the words I picked up. And gradually I understood they are this couple – one exists because of the other. So I made space for those words. And got drenched in them, thoughts and words!
But I couldn’t get rid of the headache completely. It followed me too. Nobody said it is a perfect journey. The pesky intruder I call him. But his presence brings awareness to my head the most. This headache teaches me the value of not taking my head for granted.
It’s a complex relationship. The one where I travel around the world in a jiffy and be back can’t be all that simple, can it now?
Written for #SoulfulSunday, an exercise to nourish our creative side, formulated by Esha and supported by Shilpa and yours truly
You have written an ode to your headache. Your thoughts are your passport taking you around the world through thin air. Your thoughts and words make up for your strength as a writer. I feel sorry that the thoughts bring with them the headache more often. I wasn’t aware your complicated relationship with your headache has been continuing since your childhood. I am sorry it has been a great pain for you. I hope you are having a headache free week this week.
Hugs, Vinitha! I never knew that you’ve had this long-existing complicated relationship with headaches since childhood. It must have sucked out so much energy out of you even at that wee age. I hate it when a headache ruins a perfect day for me and stalls all my plans to make it a productive day.
I must tell you that I loved your post, and how you so beautifully narrated your unusual journey! Your words just flowed effortlessly and smoothly. You do have a knack of sounding poetic even when you talk of something as mundane as a headache!!!
I wish and pray that your headache disappears for good and doesn’t return soon, Vinitha.
Take care.
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