I am so happy at the moment. Because last week my first ever book went on live in Amazon. This was a forever dream to become an author and honestly, I have no idea why I didn’t do it already. The poems in the book were all written before 2015 March except for the last one. So content was created and waiting to be published. The dream of publishing a book was born well before the content was created. And I was also there. But I was skeptical and terrified of the idea.
After writing a lot more poems in the last four years, I realized that nothing I ever write will be “good enough” to be published. Because these self-doubts keep crawling back in my mind which was only forcing me to continue dreaming instead of taking action. So I gave myself a deadline and worked to publish the book the way I planned 4 years ago.
Now, the book is out there. I am still doubtful and terrified. But I am happy. It’s a dream come true. I am overjoyed.
Ideally, this should appear in July’s gratitude post, but hey, I am so thankful that I took that leap.
June was a good month, a busy one. We had a blog-hop organized by Write Tribe which was the last post here where I shared the lessons I learned from the first six months of 2019. It was a nice experience to join in a blog-hop after a while.
On the 1st of June, I wake up to the news that this blog has made into the list of Best Indian Blogs in 2019. This was the first time I nominated my blog to be featured in this list and I was not at all sure that my blog would make it to the list what with a surge of blogs and brilliant content out there. So it was a happy moment to find my name on the list.
Kanna’s holidays started by the end of May. Having him in the house full-time has its upside and downside. He doesn’t trouble me much and helps me out with simple chores. But he is a talker and he talks my ears off about his minecraft games and stuff. Plus he doesn’t care if I am working or reading and goes on with interrupting numerous times a day. So, I am Xboxing, playing board games and other video games these days. It’s fun too, you know. 🙂
I was sick on and off last month which forced me to stop from working out and doing my work. But I took it as a sign to slow down and not be in a hurry. The good thing is when I take note of the signs from the Universe, I experience benefits – as in slowing down usually would have driven me crazy as my to-do list was growing taller than me. But, I was able to finish the important tasks by taking it slow. I feel like I am achieving a sort of zen-ly aura within me. If you see a hallow shining around me, don’t worry that’s just me being all zen and calm. 🙂
I am grateful for yoga and morning pages for keeping me grounded and sorting my health and worries. Journaling is my go-to activity when my mind feels cluttered. That feeling that there is a long way to go but deciding to slow down and enjoy the views without hurrying, that’s how I feel. More than the destination this journey with so many different routes excites me and I have decided to explore each and every path leisurely.
So don’t be surprised if you see me in different avatars, making a fool of myself sometimes, because life is too short to say no to those stray dreams. It’s okay not to be successful, but it’s not okay to keep wondering what-would-happen-if-I.
My reading journey wasn’t so lively this month, but I finished the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert which I picked up to read at the beginning of this year. I took a long time to complete this book as I kept borrowing books from the library and Eat, Pray, Love was a little dragging for my taste after the first 100 pages or so. Still, I loved the book and I would like to read it once more because I couldn’t note down some interesting and thought-provoking quotes from the book.
I am just grateful how June turned out to be. June gave me faith that even if I didn’t do a lot of work I can still have a fulfilling month by staying focussed on my goals.