I don’t think of myself as a profound writer. Nothing I write is of a ‘must-read value’. I don’t earn through my writings either. I tried that but it’s not for me. I am at peace with writing these flawed pieces that serve no purpose whatsoever to others but compels me to write rather than a 2000 word article for a little money writing which chops my soul into a million little pieces.
The thing is I’m happy with my imperfect writings that forces me to improve.
There are times though when doubt shadows me around. Why am I blogging? It is not helping anyone then why? Should I shift my shop to my journal and stop sharing these insignificant pieces of my soul with the world? Isn’t that the smarter option?
But then I remember reading the other insignificant pieces shared by my fellow bloggers. Those pieces that were written without any absolute purpose (or so the writer thought at the time of its conception) actually had helped me to stop listening to my self-doubt and keep writing. And writing definitely makes me happy.
My point is sometimes it is better to stop asking all those questions that would lead us into the deep dark pit where self-doubt reigns. Instead, keep doing that activity that makes you happy. It might feel pointless but the truth is everything has a purpose. Sometimes that purpose is not to serve an audience but to serve you. How can you help someone else selflessly if you don’t do that for yourself, to begin with?
Growth will accompany you only if you give time. Today it is your turn to do that that makes you happy so that tomorrow you can help someone else.
And of course, many times these writings which we see no particular value actually inspire others to share their story with the world inspiring someone else and so on. There is a subtle ripple effect that we are not aware of. Who am I to deny that!
Do I make sense?
Written for #SoulfulSunday, an exercise to nourish our creative side, by listening to a 10 minute guided meditation followed by 10 minutes of writing, formulated by Esha and supported by Shilpa and yours truly on Sundays.
You are welcome to join this meditative writing session!