“Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.”
It’s normal to feel angry. But holding on to anger – that’s a different matter.
Sometimes I feel this incredible anger from within. And often it is directed at someone else, originated from some undesirable memory. I’m not saying this with pride. That kind of anger is destructive. I find myself weak when consumed with that rage.
I know forgiving would make everything easier. And I was under the impression that I had forgiven. But when forgiveness was never asked for then would there be any effect?
I realized that the simple act of forgiveness isn’t enough unless it was asked for. Then how will I get peace?
Because this anger is not who I am. And this anger is destroying me bit by bit.
So I found an alternative. Since I wanted closure, I decided to write a letter to the “culprits” blaming them, accusing them, talking about everything that I kept stashed inside my mind, and finally ending the letter with my forgiveness.
That’s how I let it go.
Because I can’t wait forever for others to face their conscience. If I need peace I must let go. I can’t let those people who didn’t even have the sense to say sorry for being such a bad character in someone’s life destroy my peace forever.
Oh, and I don’t send those letters to anyone. It’s for the trash can. That’s where soulless people belong.
This exercise has helped me from unwanted memories destroying my sanity. How do you deal with your residual anger? How do you make peace with it?