Some days I wake up with a certain sense of calmness in my mind. I love those days. Though I haven’t figured out a pattern between these calm mind days and chaotic mind days, I think it has to do with how I go to sleep.
When I write in my journal and come to an agreement within myself that I am doing okay regardless of the wasted times during the day, when I write down my gratitude for the day before hitting the bed, when I highlight the wins of the day as small as cooking a meal in my journal, it makes a difference in how quickly my mind calms down, away from all the overwhelming feelings that normally slaughter my mind.
Journaling definitely is my medicine. Be it coming to terms with myself, keeping the demons away, counting the blessings in my life – journaling helps me. When I write down ‘I feel sad’ in my journal, I get the feeling of being heard. Books are our friends. For me, notebooks are my best friends. I find it difficult to throw away my old notebooks/journals that had seen and heard a lot of my gibberish.
But since my journal collection is growing taller than me, I decided it’s time to declutter them. So, I decided to go through them one by one, page after page, and document any document worthy thoughts in my Notion account. It’s going to be a tedious task, but an enjoyable one I hope as I love reading my thoughts from the yesterdays’. I have around 7-8 years’ worth of notebooks to sort through, by the way.
My weekly gratitude reflections at this moment are:
- Grateful for committing to a 30-day yoga challenge. I have started practicing Yoga with Adriene’s 30 days of Yoga, which she had broadcasted 7 years ago in 2015 on her YouTube channel. Today was my 7th day of practice. The reason I committed to this practice is to set a challenge for myself. I am hoping to do the next seven thirty-day yoga practices Adriene has since posted on her channel after finishing this one. Let’s hope I will live up to the challenge.
- Books – I couldn’t keep up with Fifty Shades of Grey after reading the first 100 pages. It was too intense and shallow for me. Currently reading The Notebook by Nicholas Spark after my dear friend Anamika recommended the book.
- Writing – I am slowly getting back to my writing routine. Last week three days I woke up at 5:15 and wrote a few pieces. It felt unbelievably good to do what I love the best. In the hustle and bustle of everything else, I forget to write and that is a crime. Because at the end of the day writing a simple poem or a fifty-word story makes me supremely happy. I find my solace in writing. I feel like coming back home every time I am done with writing a poem. This week I am hoping to elevate my writing and publish those pieces in my blogs.
- I find myself at peace these days. Peace, not because I have everything under control. Peace, despite nothing, feels under control. I think paying attention to what I want is what I needed the most. I am doing it a bit at a time. I hope that I will keep up with taking care of myself in the coming days as well. I feel gratitude filling my heart knowing that the tiny changes I am doing is helping me shift my inner narrative.
There is only one person that we need to focus on. Self. And when we do that remember not to be in a hurry. We are not a 30-day project. We get to be with us for a lifetime. Slow and steady is the key. And never, never ever, try to copy-paste what’s working for someone else in your life. I don’t that will work well. Find your rhythm. Find your tune. Find your inner peace.
Joining Esha for #SoulfulSunday with this gratitude post.