Today was one of those days where I felt it was impossible to write. See, it wasn’t the lack of topic ideas that stumped me. I had a few things in my mind to write about. I even started writing on one of those topics. Then it didn’t feel right to me. So I scratched it and started working on another topic which I wanted to write. Soon that also felt not right to me. So I started to write something else hoping that it would feel right. But nothing seemed right. I wasn’t satisfied with anything.
What I wanted to write and what I was writing – there was a discrepancy between the two..
One thing I realized over the years is that when this sort of inability in communication happens it’s best to take a break from communicating. Because the more I try to write my thoughts, the more absurd it sounds, at least to me. Then what is the point in writing them down?
Writing should flow naturally. There is no reason to force if it isn’t sparking joy or at least some amount of satisfaction. I am not abandoning my musings. I will get back to them and write my heart out when my musings and words are ready to befriend again.
Life isn’t always about doing. Sometimes it is about pausing and letting it be.
If all of this sound absurd to you, well, there you have it, my insane thought process.